I will sing of your love and justice, lord . I will praise you with songs. I will be careful to live a blameless life— when will you come to help me? I will lead a life of integrity in my own home. I will refuse to look at anything vile and vulgar. I hate all who deal crookedly; I will have nothing to do with them. I will reject perverse ideas and stay away from every evil. I will not tolerate people who slander their neighbors. I will not endure conceit and pride. I will search for faithful people to be my companions. Only those who are above reproach will be allowed to serve me. I will not allow deceivers to serve in my house, and liars will not stay in my presence. My daily task will be to ferret out the wicked and free the city of the lord from their grip. Psalms 101:1-8 NLT
I will sing of mercy and judgment: unto thee, O Lord, will I sing. I will behave myself wisely in a perfect way. O when wilt thou come unto me? I will walk within my house with a perfect heart. I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. A froward heart shall depart from me: I will not know a wicked person. Whoso privily slandereth his neighbour, him will I cut off: him that hath an high look and a proud heart will not I suffer. Mine eyes shall be upon the faithful of the land, that they may dwell with me: he that walketh in a perfect way, he shall serve me. He that worketh deceit shall not dwell within my house: he that telleth lies shall not tarry in my sight. I will early destroy all the wicked of the land; that I may cut off all wicked doers from the city of the Lord. Psalms 101:1-8 KJV
I am still working on so many of those things, but I am not as blind to my weaknesses as I was not many years ago. I am trying to see more of what has to be fixed in myself than in others. This reading was a right-on-time kind of thing. It reminds me that I am supposed to live my salvation as much as I proclaim it.
For so long, I was comfortable in my sins and failings. I'm not talking about before I was saved, but for a long time afterwards. And even, sometimes, right now. I learn that fire is hot from touching the flames. It's sad to admit, but I have always learned my best lessons by surviving something.
After reading this, I made a list of things I need to work on:
- Not to look at someone who is hurting from the comfort of my own peace.
- To think twice as much as I open my mouth to speak - especially when I am mad or hurt.
- Learn to not only count my blessings but to also share them.
- Stop making excuses for avoiding changes I need to make in my life.
- Start doing the hardest things first.
- Have more action than intentions.
Yeah, so I have some stuff to work on.